Another Storm

I know I've said it before, but I'll say it again.  I really hate when bloggers begin a post with, "I know I haven't been blogging but..."  Everyone is busy, and everyone has REAL lives outside of the Bloggersphere, so daily posts aren't always possible.  Lately, I haven't really been "busy," I've just had a lot going on.  Personal stuff.  Private stuff.  Stuff that I don't necessarily feel the need to publicly document.  However, I keep thinking that this blog started out as a way for me to document my daily comings and goings, my life. So I've decided to do it as best as I can while still keeping some privacy. 

You know the saying, "when it rains, it pours?"  I myself am quite familiar with it.  However, in the last few years, the rain of my life hasn't exactly been a good rain.  This saying more describes the... (how-to-put-it-nicely?)  CRAP that always seems to be happening to myself and those closest to me.  I have often felt tired of the storms and ready for the sun, but just as I catch a few glimpses of sunshine, BAM, I'm hit with thunder and lightening. 

Three years ago, I remember driving alone in my car, and feeling an overwhelming sense of grattitude.  "I am so thankful for my life," I thought as I pondered all of my blessings (everyone was healthy, I had a great family, and parents who were married for 31 years, everyone had jobs, etc.).  Almost the next day, it started. 

Since having that thought of grattitude, I have dealt with two divorces, court battles, custody battles, deaths, heartbreaks, betrayal, lies, financial worries, school troubles, threats of foreclosures, bankruptcies repossessions, and multiple unemployments, not to mention the daily stresses life always has in store for us.  Now, these things have not all happened directly to me, but I have experienced them all through my close friends and family, and therefore I am directly impacted.  I consistently feel helpless, angry, anxious, worried and sad.  And it seems to be that whenever one trial "ends," another begins.

I don't mean to sound so negative.  If there's one thing I hate more than lying, it's a Negative Nelly.  But this is the reason for my blogging absence.  Another storm.